1. 2 years ago 

   Everclear.

   I’m at a cross road. Should I stay or should I go?

   I take my life in milestones. I set goals for myself and after a certain time period, I analyze what it is I’ve accomplished and what’s in store for me in the future.

   I didn’t do as bad as I had imagined this last semester. Managed to keep my GPA above a 3.0, but I’m not down with that. I’m trying to go to Law school, and that means perfection. But I learned something very important from one of my Professors:

   “You have to learn how to learn”

   This past year was definitely a learning experience. And ultimately that’s what education is about, not just learning random facts and attempting to memorize quadratic equations, its about life lessons and food for thought. Just need to put things into action from now on. But I’m not all talk, gotta walk the walk.

   Work is so dull. I’ve grown so bored, content, tired, and unchallenged as of late. I had a long long talk with my co-worker today, who’s really more than just a co-worker, he’s probably the closest thing to my best friend if shit like that even exists anymore. He kind of put things into perspective. I am content and very convenient where I am now. Its kind of perfect for my life. But I thrive on challenge, its just how do I know when I’ve hit my peak? It’s like I’m always striving for more..

   I really don’t know if that’s a strength or fault of mine. When will I ever be content? I’d say I’m happy for the most part, but its what’s underneath that really eats away at me.  Thing is though, I realize what my faults are. I am human. I really want to be the best that I can be, though. Ok, corny slogan. But it gets the point across. Gotta work on whats necessary. Especially with other people.

   I’m really not one to get caught up. Its not my style. For the most part it may seem my life is really complicated or fast-paced and fluid, but in all honesty to me, its really simple; sometimes too simple.

   I’ve needed a different style to throw me off my game, that’s when life gets interesting, when its fun. Just not as fun getting caught in the crossfire. Its been a long long time since I’ve felt any kind of emotion, like real emotion. Reciprocated? We’ll see. Just hope I don’t set myself up for failure. Its really unlike me. But that’s half the fun, just have to let go of the monotony and trust in the unknown. I can’t control everything.

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