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Notes: 1 / 2 years ago
Contingent
Its an interesting set of circumstance I continue to place myself in; ironic even to an extent.
I’ve ranted countlessly on my aspirations for treading new waters and testing my capabilities beyond a reasonable doubt. So it doesn’t surprise me that with this new chapter in my life, a greater challenge presents itself, undoubtedly brought upon me of my own free will.
I work 40 hours a week as a Manager, take 12 units, wrestle for state, finally joined Akbayan (Filipino club), am part of a FMA (significant financial management club), and decided to top it off by pledging AKPSi (business fraternity). Needless to say, “free time” has gone by the way side.
For the past two years, I’ve pretty much eliminated the thought of overextending my capabilities. Its been a constant trial and error in an attempt to discover the equilibrium of my own beleaguered mind. Although with each passing moment, I believe its a step in the right direction, despite the consequence, there is never regret.
As new opportunities arise, so too do new obstacles surface. Neglect starts to creep in as focus is shifted from task to task. I don’t want to forget what my priorities are, but it is often difficult to make a decision that will potentially benefit the future than to appease the needs of the now. This is my new way of testing my mettle. Can I feasibly contort my mind well enough to successfully complete each goal I set out for myself? We’ll have to see.
And to all the relationships that I have unintentionally neglected or opportunities lost to build new ones, you are the sacrifice that has impacted me the most. I recognize this and now know how pertinent it is. It is the memories we make together that tread beyond the scope of relevance, not the moments missed in absent passing. It was never an intention of disrespect. But ignorance of the law is not a validation for permission.
When they said its higher education, they really meant it.
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